Surviving TDY

Well, Marcus has been gone since 3AM Friday morning. It really feels like he's been gone since Thursday because he slept all of Thursday away! Since he's been gone, i think we may have talked like seriously 15 mins tops! He is having so much fun though, so whatever. I just need a break! lol Don't get me wrong, CC is a GREAT baby! I mean seriously, GREAT! Fusses when hungry - and thats it. Not even when shes dirty! its just...constantly a baby there for 4 days straight...sometimes u just need a big ole break!

So anyways, in other news, CC will be 4 months old on the 27th. Still doesnt roll, only grabed at toys once....i know i know, you are all thinking - all babies develop diffrent....but i dont want mine to b the one thats behind the rest of them! lol

We go home in about a month. I bought CC some way cute clothes to wear at home. I feel like i should b packing already lol There's so much stuff i need to do! Ok...thats enough for this post lol

Praise Reports:
CC is almost 4 months!!!
Marcus made it to Corpus Christi safely
Phe's mom is finally getting the care she needs
Great friends

Prayer Requests:
Phe's mom is better soon
Safe Travels from Corpus Christi and on our vacation
Baby Madelyn and Brady safely delivered
Marcus gets staff
Four month shots go well

apparently, i wasnt the only one...

once dh finally woke up from his nap and i was in my usual pissy mood from him sleeping so long, me starving cuz cc has been extra fussy lately so i cant put her down long enough for one darn bite of food...he confessed.

he said he feels like a horrible husband and dad because he just wants one day when we can just lay together and not have to worry about cc being there...basically he wants one day of just us again. of course he feels horrible for even saying it but i can totally understand what he is saying. i mean how many of u out there have someone...anyone that can watch your kiddos for even 3 hours? yea we have no one. no one we trust that we can just drop the kid off with for a while. the lady watching cc for the concert lives over an hr away. shes even crashing at our house that night because it will be so late when we get home. who knows...maybe after the concert we will jsut go parking somewhere.

im pretty sure we would just sleep if we had that chance. if we had no interuptions, no worrying about cc....just us two again - yea we would sleep...for a week. i need to make a to do list of things to do before marcus leaves for tdy this weekend. we have/well i suppose I have so much to do since dh will b sleeping...gosh this sucks sometimes.

oh my...when will we have a normal convrsation again?

as i sit here listening to CC talk to her feet and Marcus snoring...theres a few things very heavy on my heart. One of which I can not write here, or really anywhere that I post online so that I dont hurt anyones feelings....the other is this.

CC is almost 4 months old. She is getting so big and so animated lately. I love her so much.

What i dont love though is the fact that I'm pretty sure me and Marcus dont "talk" anymore. Don't get me wrong its not like we are walking around here in a silent house - its just what we talk about is always something to do with CC or what i like to call "buisness". What'd you do at work, did you put in for leave, i need to go and get this and that, what do you want me to cook for dinner, etc. There's no real....whats the word....caring? It's not how was your day, i missed you, etc.

Here is a basic day in the Fautherree residence:

8 -9AM - Marcus gets home from work and showers.
9AM - 12PM - Marcus grabs CC, feeds her, eats breakfast, and keeps her so I can get a few hours of uninterupted sleep.
11AM -12PM - at some point i wake up and either go downstairs, or wait for him to come up to bed.
12PM - i get up, brush my teeth, and grab the baby. Kiss marcus and go downstairs.
12PM - 7PM - nothing but me and CC. Marcus sleeps, we usually eat, sleep, watch tv, internet, etc. cook dinner, clean....
7PM - 9PM MWF/7PM - 10PM T/Thurs - Marcus gets up at some point in those 2 hrs, eats dinner, and turns on the tv to whatever show we dvr'd or watch that day.
9PM/10PM-11PM - Marcus gets ready for work and leaves

thats it... ssdd. theres no romance, no connection between anything but Marcus and the TV. I am getting pretty tired of this routine. It sucks. Yes, occasionally we "met in bed" for that usual once in a while dtd - but otherwise, thats it. no real conversation. The only time we have that connection is on the weekends. That breif moment between feeding cc and coming downstairs - we talk about useless matters. Still not loving or caring things...just whatever comes to mind. Usually, u wanna feed her or u want me to? wheres the diapers? etc.

Someone out there in internet land tell me how to make this horrible routine stop before our relationship truly suffers...im so tired of not having the loving and caring moments...and sooner or later, this will effect us in greater ways then we are concerned about now - and i dont want it to....<3

Praise Reports:
GREAT Easter
CC's belly button isnt serious
Got a babysitter for the concert :-D
IUD was removed safe and quickly
Good friend's baby is still sticking :-)

Prayer requests:
Marcus gets staff
Safe travels
Baby M & B gets here safely
Four month shots go better then 2 month shots
Something good for Betsy and Chris

Gotta Love Sundays

Our week is pretty crazy around here. With Marcus working nights, appointments, dinner, tv shows, etc. its pretty much organized chaos. Saturday night is the out night. Weither its bowling or party or bbq, theres always something to do to get out of the house. But Sundays...bboy do I love Sundays!

Sundays are our lazy days. Get out of bed around noonish or later. i know what you're all thinking...NOON?! With a baby?! yup. she just cuddles with us. We are awake for a while before we pull ourselves from the sheets for brunch. Since Marcus and I were married, weekend mornings were our cuddling time! We would just lay in each others arms talking about nothing important or not even talk at all and just stare at the beautiful sunshine God had blessed us with coming in thru the window. or clouds, raindrops...whatever flavor of weather God thought was appropriate for the day. We just lay there cuddling, being so glad for all of our blessing.

Then we get up, and basically veg out wherever we feel the need. Eat whatever we are in the mood for, and just hang out. Yes, occasionally theres cleaning to be done, or errands to run - but usually, we are just homebodies. Pj wearing, bad haired, and even occasionally bad breathed...lazy lazy Sundays.

And today, is an equally lazy Sunday. Marcus had some of his friends over last night, drinking and playing video games. I stayed up laughing with them until about 4am. Then decided Cadence would need at least one parent today so I went off to bed and left them to their drinks and Bourne Ultimatum - can i just say yummmmmmmy! Jason Bourne <3

I woke up at 1:30pm and wondered why Marcus wasnt in the bed with me...and why I hadnt heard Cadence cry at all! Come down the stairs to see Marcus holding Cadence - both totally asleep. Totally brings tears to your eyes to see something so innocent....so sweet. I came down and gave him a little kiss and he woke up. Took the baby and said go back to sleep hon. Put her in her swing, and they both slept. I just sat here...surfing the internet, watching the loves of my life as they slept.

Now its 4:30, Marcus still snoring off last night, and me and Cadence are just hanging out. I love seeing that gummy smile I must say. She's just sitting here talking.

I must say you should all be very very say that you dont have this little girl in your life every single day. You're missing out and I feel sorry for u :-)

whats been going on over n the big ABQ

alright well its been a good minute since i wrote an update. here goes. Cadence is now 3 months old. How insane is that?! She's talking like crazy and SO loud. She's trying to laugh. you can tell cuz she opens her mouth real wide and then coughs lol its so cute. she'll get it soon im sure.

Although some may disagree, i believe she is teething. I'm not saying there is one popping right out this very moment, however there are so big signs. Chewing her fingers constantly, drooling soooo much i go thru at least 5 onsies a day - WITH bibs. extra fussy for no apparent reason. No fever yet, and as i said, nothing about to pop out. Just the beginning of something i will go thru many times before her little mouth is no longer gummy. Honestly, im sad about it. super sad. I love that gummy little smile. i dont want anything messing it up. Her dad keeps telling her how much she doesnt want to deal with teeth since his recent root canal. he's like, just dont grow them. Ive seen people eat apples without teeth..u'll be fine. lol

Marcus tests for staff May 14th. Prayers please! He/we need this raise. Not necessarily NEED it as much the raise will be a huge help! Otherwise, he is doing great. He goes TDY to some place in Texas from the 17th to the 20th - 4 whole days of baby duty - ALONE. this should b pretty interesting eh? we'll see. im really nervous about it. not like i cant do it, im with her 24/7. but its the fact that if i get stressed out - there is no one to help. not 1 person. and so...im freaking out. guess i may end up using that just walk away method. we'll see how it goes.

I am doing good. We discovered the iud is falling out, and so I go on Monday to get it removed. I am just going to get on the pill because i dont want to go thru this 100 times before they get it right.

So, we are driving home next month for Eric's graduation - Marcus's brother. We will leave here either the 14th night or the 15th day. We will stay one night in Wichita Falls, as usual, and then drive home. So we will be in vinton on the 16th basically. He graduates the 18th. Then we will spend 2 weeks home before going to visit a couple friends in Fort Polk (and hopefully and new baby Brady :-) , and then driving to Little Rock to visit with a couple friends there for about 3 or 4 days. Then come home around June 5th. Right before Marcus birthday. :-) I cant wait to go home. I just have NO IDEA what to pack for Cadence lol

I wanna go to Florida while we are home, but i dont know if that will happen. Plus my sister will have a new newborn lol still have that new car smell and everything. so we dont want to be a burden. Between dealing with her new baby, and then us being there with a 4 1/2 month old, it may be a little overwhelming for them. We'll see what happens.

Ok so that's a pretty long update. Guess I'll leave the rest for later.

Praise Reports -
IUD is not floating around inside of me
Cadence is growing happy and healthy
Marcus is finally better from his teeth
My family :-)
Vacation
New Neice & 'Nephew' Soon!
Every Morning :-)

Prayer Requests -
I find a babysitter for the concert
Safe travels
IUD removal easy and quick
God's will be done with the possibility Baby F #2
Four month shots go better then 2 month shots did
Marcus gets Staff!
Something good for Betsy & Chris
Baby Madelyn & Brady's safe arrival
Good Friend's baby STICKS!

Thats it for now....ttyl